#automatic negative thoughts

[evolvingbeautyandmess]

USUAL DISCLAIMER: so these blog posts are big dictated are being dictated to my phone via speech to text and I typically as if it's able person do not have a spoons to properly edit them so that this going to remain as is. So heads up. Also I don't know why Google sensors curse words. Lately I've been reminded of the importance of:

Letting yourself feel whatever you are feeling even if it's not what you think you should be feeling or what feels good to feel.

By doing this you can then not only question any negative thoughts you might be having to actually see if they're factual and thus worth reacting to (if applicable) but also get to the core of what's really really actually bothering you.

The other day I nearly bawled my eyes out because I had run out of a certain food that I wanted to eat. And I stopped and kinda observed myself and thought seriously lol?

But of course it was not about that food item lol. There was a deeper thing that I was not processing and addressing and it was spilling over into more superficial situations.

(I was also overwhelmed on I sensory level but that's another post. also perimenopause. pretty hormonal. it's a moshpit in my uterus right now lol. )

[sittinwithyou]

I considered myself a pretty positive person before my therapist made me really listen to myself. ANTS. They'll eat you alive if you let them.

[themandalalady]

23-178 Transform Your Self Talk #3

Today’s Mandala Message: Challenge Your ANTs This week I’m working through Principle #32 from Jack Canfield’s “The Success Principles” entitled “Transform Your Inner Critic into an Inner Coach”. I set my intention today to ponder how to challenge my ANTs. Canfield states: “Psychiatrist Daniel G. Amen has named the limiting thoughts we hear in our head ANTS—Automatic Negative Thoughts. … Dr. Amen…

[afterlife-2004]

“people are actually insane because did you really think we were going to see Jim fucking Carrey executed by firing squad in a kids film”

yall do this to the most tame shit, he's literally just sitting in a chair monologuing about destroying the world.

This is some Saturday morning cartoon energy lmao

this sort of thing wouldn’t be out of place in a fucking Disney movie lol

Children can handle these kinds of dark subject matters

Kids are smarter than most people give them credit for.

Also… It’s pretty disrespectful to imply such a good actor like Jim Carrey can only and ever act as himself as if he doesn’t have the range to pull off a serious character lol

Jim Carrey can play the most depressed guy and the funny crazy man

Lowering someone like that, is kinda disrespectful. He's a good actor. Don't pretend he's not

you can tell people like this have not watched The Truman Show…

[luniviravosshipper]

I have drafted up too many posts about my feelings about being in this fandom lately and particularly about how that feeds into my views on the show. I don’t know.

Was even going to add more onto this but then I’ll probably not be able to even finish my line of thoughts for this post and also again end up saving this to my drafts.

[orcelito]

I get so annoyed by people posting their tristamp hate in main trigun tag like I'm sorry u don't like it but why be an unpleasant ass about it to anyone coming into this tag that does?? U can complain about it on ur own blog without main tagging it I prommy, it might even still be satisfying for you. Just a fucking suggestion.

[kithj]

played mouthwashing... good game

[angelnumber27]

I think that I am going to get better

[strawberryfaced]

thinking about what parent and child relationships are really about and I’m going to rant in the tags!

[wintersettled]

NOOOOO DONT READ AND THE OUTLAWS ITS OOC FOR EVERYBODY AND MISOGYNISTIC NOT TO MENTION WRITTEN BY A S*X OFFENDER??? Please be cognizant of who you're supporting! Part of my reluctance in recommending comics like red hood lost days is due to the presence of racist writing and characterization for characters such as Talia that appeared especially post 9/11...

Anyways if you would like good recommendations for the three main characters (Jason, Roy, and Kory) i wont make a whole list but I'll mention some ongoings or recent comics theyve been in that have been nice 🥰

JASON TODD has recently appeared in issue 2 of Juni Ba's The Boy Wonder which is a really great ongoing revolving around Damian in his early days as Robin!! The writing for Jason was really great but I'd recommend you all read the comic which currently has 3 issues out! It's a great comic and a super quick read 💞 currently Jason is also in Red Hood: The Hill which I haven't read myself yet but I've heard mixed reviews so take that with a grain of salt! Today the first issue of Robin Lives! dropped which is in an alternate reality where the should we kill robin poll went the other way 😯 it's really great so far so I recommend you pick it up! Heres a site made by oomf with more Jason comics 💞

ROY HARPER is currently featured in Green Arrow (2023) alongside his daughter, Lian. I think this is a great way to get to know more about Roy as well has his family, especially with the most recent issue 13.

KORIAND'R is currently a main character in Titans (2023) which has gorgeous art but I'm afraid I'm not entirely too keen on as someone who is a fan of the titans... sadly Kory hasn't received a lot of great writing recently but I would say this is some of the best (low bar) she's been given in a while...

Sadly these three have received a lot of mediocre and out of character writing in recent years but if you're looking for some recent stuff from them I would recommend you start here 🥰 sometimes it can be nerve wracking to start reading but these comics are all early in their runs so theres no need for concern there! Happy reading 💞💞

[serendark]

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[dimiclaudeblaigan]

it's so interesting for me to hear that houses localization changed the script to vilify(?word?) the church bc when i played the game (i recently finished my first and so far only playthrough in lions route) for the first half of the game i was waiting for the shoe to drop to reveal the church is the big bad guys but it never came and the revealed was actually ed. idk if it should have been obvious but i was too focused on suspecting the church to see it or if it was actually subtle as i tend to be oblivious to hints(¿word again?) given in media lol.

idk where im going with this but i hope it makes at least some sense bc i am so sleep deprived rn

and the thing tou said about Henry being changed i am so curious of that too

hope you have a nice day and better sleep than me!

I'll answer the last part first since the rest is more descriptive.

Basically Henry went to Wizard School (tee em) and it was a cool and great experience. In JP, it was... iirc basically close to torture/hellish? It was a more mature situation/topic, but the loc changed it to be silly and fun sounding. For some reason Treehouse in particular seems deeply if not fatally allergic to mature topics and/or properly handling them.

Thank for about the sleep comment and I assure you, I sleep too often!! I wish I could send you some of my sleep and make it extra quality for you. :(

As for Three Houses, yeah, in AM it doesn't really happen that way. Nobody is really vilified (not even the imperialist warmonger invading neutral lands!) in AM (same with AG in Hopes).

What you saw/understood was the whole point! It was made it look at first like the Church was suspicious, but then the reveal was meant to be no, it was a fellow house leader all along. That was what the red herring part about the Church was all about. You were supposed to suspect the Church at first, hence Jeralt's warnings, and if you're playing GD, Claude's suspicions.

Unfortunately what happens in the other routes, especially in CF, is that Rhea's trauma is never explored, no characters stop to understand her motivation, etc. She's just used as the resident bad guy because she's Edelgard's enemy. Basically, you're seeing it from the point of view that Rhea is bad because you see it from Edelgard's perspective... but it fails to work because the game, in particular the localization, amps Edelgard up as a huge progressive hero. AM is the only route that really confronts her about her "views", and even then, it's a mess because all the things she argues with Dimitri about aren't her end goal (i.e. they don't ever end up actually happening in the vast capacity she claims she's going to do).

About Edelgard:

The localization avoids any particularly negative comments about her and changes or outright removes them (true of Hopes as well). In Dimitri's case it would make sense because of their connection, but when it ends up just being another route in the pile of feeling sorry for Edelgard (and... not Rhea, who had her family massacred and their bones turned into weapons), it just feels stale.

They basically tell you Edelgard is very cute and easily embarrassed, and she's just this headstrong progressive woman fighting For The People (tee em). The truth is (as per the game itself, i.e. content they can't change/localized because it's the contents of the game itself) that she's invading innocent lands, conscripting her own citizens, turning her citizens into demonic beasts to add to her military strength (lelz when u can't even rely on ur nation's own military strength without demonic beasts), and victim blaming anyone who fights back (if you have yet to see the extremely infamous "no u" line from Edegard to Dimitri in CF, you've been blessed) among other things.

They basically shove it down your throat, characters and narrative both (in the loc in particular), that Edelgard is good and just, while the story itself is looking at all that like ???. The JP script still tries to take good care of her and her image, but they're a lot more blunt about her/her goals (i.e. they don't dance around them nearly as much).

The localization showers what she does with love and attention, and even when they have to say she's the problem/aggressor, they still pretty it up as much as possible (such as Dimitri wondering if maybe her vision of society could possibly be just and righteous, instead of outright admitting what she's done is absolutely atrocious when it's way worse than anything he ever did, all of which he admits to doing and takes responsibility for).

The JP version is more clear on her being the villain. There's definitely bias toward her (as the writers were, confirmed by an interview), but it doesn't slap you in the face with it nearly as badly. Also, Dimitri has won a character popularity poll every year since the game's inception in Japan. In the west, Edelgard is much more popular than she is in the east. That, of course, is because of the way the loc pushed the writing for her/about her.

Edelgard's "progressive" stuff is supposed to be just propaganda (which is ultimately, even as per the western endings because there's only so much they can change). The way the loc frames it is that it's actually what she's aiming for. It's what she uses to inspire people to fight for her though, not what she's actually doing.

About Rhea:

This one's the real doozy because it's a victim of the above. Since they wanted to pretty up Edelgard's dialogue and make her A Hero (tee em), they needed whoever her main enemy was to be the "villain". Since Edelgard, now popular because of the tweaks in her dialogue, hated and wanted to kill Rhea, so too did her raging fans who gave no fucks whatsoever about any character who opposed her... even if it was just to save their own life!

They changed the tone of Rhea's voice in the loc to make her more angry and villainous sounding, rather than sad or kind. She was basically altered in the loc to make Edelgard look better. Like, of course, in the perspective of playing a villain in CF, she's the bad guy and the enemy. The problem comes when they have Rhea say things that are more aggressive than in the original script, and change her tone to sound demeaning and vicious (when she was otherwise not or not as much).

But like, why? The only reason any of us can think of is because they wanted to market Edelgard more. This is likely a result of the west's views and especially political views, since Edelgard's pretty words would sound good to a westerner's political beliefs... until you dig into them/the actual story content more.

Rhea also being the head of a Church probably got tweaked because of the west's recent irl views on religion. Religion in the west has been looked poorly upon in recent years. Instead of accepting this is just a fictional game though, the loc team just... pushed that they're Really Bad.

Rhea is more of a victim of them needing someone to be worse than Edelgard to make Edelgard look like less of a villain (which again, this isn't the case in the original script nearly as much), and they couldn't use Thales/the Agarthans because you were allied with them in that route.

The other characters vs Rhea as a villain choice:

The goal wasn't to make a playable lord a villain in the loc's case. It was the intention of the original script with Edelgard, but the loc tried to make her actions sound more justified because ??? like idk, I can't wrap my head around them justifying what she does.

Dimitri isn't handled too badly by the narrative itself and he's overall seen as a good person (even the loc didn't alter that or Edelgard's ablest mentality toward a mentally unwell person), so he wasn't really a good candidate for all that. Also, Dimitri's story is one of recovery, and because they ventured into mental illness, he wasn't a good candidate. He was treated well and pretty fairly (Edelgard not treating him particularly well makes sense with her character, but the narrative itself doesn't push him as being a monstrous person. Even in the time he considers that he was, there's depth, logic and complexity to the situation).

Claude being the main bipoc character would have just been an all around disaster if the loc or even original script tried to make him the top villain, yadda yadda (understandably). There was no chance that was going to go over well, especially in the west (have you seen the shitstorm GW caused? And that was with the writing not considering him a villain!!). He was basically safe from the get go as far as villainy if they writers/localizers didn't want serious backlash (there are discussions about the overall treatment of poc characters in Houses/Hopes, but I can guarantee it would've been legit backlash if he was made to be a genuinely and intentionally horrible person, so that wasn't really an option if they wanted this game to actually sell and be enjoyed).

So since Rhea isn't playable and is the head of a Church, that kind of makes her the only candidate. Players will get attached to the other lords and not like killing them, so it won't feel like a badass victory to kill them. I guess for some reason the loc team just... hated Rhea or something?

Dimitri's death in CF is either extremely sad and garners audience sympathy, or in the other version of his death in CF it's clear his mentally stability is starting to break right before he's killed, which in and of itself is another topic. Claude is either free to go by choice of the player or can be killed, and his death is sad and he's not villainized. Aside from how some characters treat Claude's death (in contrast to Dimitri's which is never outright villainized even by Edelgard), the scene meant for the player at the time it happens is supposed to leave a bad taste in your mouth.

So again, it really just leaves the loc team with the option of Rhea if they want to make the final battle seem like a big victory for the player. VW also has its big happy victory, and surprise surprise, Rhea dies in that route (offscreen no less!).

SS kills off Rhea but actually makes it sad, and it's, you know, actually the route that focuses on her/the Church most. AM doesn't kill her off and doesn't treat any character death as a badass victory, and instead gives a bittersweet ending (which again would be in line with Dimitri's connection to Edelgard, and it only feels botched down because of all routes obsessing over her).

So while, technically, the writing in the JP script wasn't trying to make Rhea as bad as the western version of the game, if the loc wanted to go for that, she was the best option. It just... came at the expense of butchering her character to make Edelgard shine, which shouldn't have been done but it was.

[androidsvsvikings]

there is an essay to be written about the 2020 where corona forced us to stay inside and we all turned to arts and consumed movies, music, fanfics, books, etc, in large quantities, and only a few years later the artists are about to be replaced by AI.

[claiai]

ugh I have to do a project about the science behind yoga but when I see big science words my brain turns off

[veronicawalshcbt]

Self acceptance and embracing who you are - with CBT visualisation and new self talk